I am very thankful to God for being able to write this testimony.

My name is Ii. I have for brother and sisters, I am the youngest. My father was a Christian, and I am too now. My mother was Buddhist.

When I was 2 years old my mother and father divorced. I went to live with my mother’s family and my grandparents. I don’t remember my father at all.

My mother was selling and buying and did not live much at home. I did not see my mother often. My mother was sending us money for food, and etc. But I did not like this. When my mother was not home, my grandparents’ hit me often and called me the Christian child. They did not like that my father was a Christian and left my mother. My brother was also a Christian. And they fight with my grandparents sometimes. One time my father came and visited me, and he gave us some food and clothes. But he did not live with us for long.

One day he said he needed to go back to where he lived. Because of this I wanted to die. Then my father said he would come back after 2-3 days, but he died not long after. For a long time I did not believe he was dead. My grandparents said he was dead, but I said that he will come back one day. I really hoped he would come back.

It was only my mother that came back. My mother said that she would now live with us. But first she said she had to go and do something, but not for a long time. I was so looking forward to my mother to come back, not long after a person came with the bad news that my mother also had died. At that time I was 8 years old. I also did not believe that she was dead either, but she never came back.

My grandparents send us to an orphanage. At this time my sister and brother went working. From I was 9 to 16 my brother gave me some money from the work he did.

During this time I did not trust in or believed in anything. I only believed in myself and doing things for myself. I did not believe God could help me anymore. I believed God was on this earth at all. If there were someone who came and talked to me about God or religion, I became very angry. I lived at the orphanage for 10 years. I wanted to be a doctor and I tried to study, but I did not make it to be a doctor. I did not have enough points to get in to the school. Because of all this I really became said and depressed. I felt I did not have any future and hope. I did not know what to do.

After this I went to my aunt in Thatchilek, Thachilek is a city close to the border to Thailand. I went there alone. When I lived at this place I heard a lot about God. But I did not like it at all. I did not believe it. One day I was really depressed, and my aunt closed the door for me.

This day I meet my husband. He was sheering the gospel for me. I was looking in to his eyes and I could see that he was talking the truth. We were talking a lot together. He had a very compassionate look. He came back and gave me a Bible. I wanted to start and read the Bible. When I read about when the soldiers came and arrested Jesus in the Gospel of John, and how he suffered a lot.

I started to understand that God is love, that he loved the world. I had never seen this kind of love before in my life. If this was true, I wanted it! I also wanted to know about the Bible more. I went to a church and there I asked a lot of questions.

I really wanted to know how to get saved, because I felt I was a sinner and I wanted to ask God for forgives for my sin. I wanted to give him my live. I felt that my life was not good; I wanted this old life to go away. I also wanted to go and work for God. I moved out from my aunt’s house, and work for an evangelistic centre. There I worked for free and got food and a room to stay.

I also understood that I could not only trust in myself and go my own way any more. I also did not believe it was the will of God any more that I should be a doctor. I felt God called me to go and teach for children like in a Sunday school.

My aunt did not like that, but I had joy when I did this. I had peace, and because of this I wanted to go with Jesus. I did not want do go other ways. I want to care for people who do not have a mother or father, and I want to start to share about God to others.

I want to teach children to worship God, and share stories about God from the Bible to the children. I now believe this is the will of God for me. Now God has blessed me with a big Christian family. I have also given birth to a child, called Hosanna.